Patricia

“I was born again and had read the Bible for years, yet I kept making the same painful choices — three marriages, lost custody of my children — because I still hadn't learned to actually listen to God.”

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What they struggled with

Divorce Loneliness / isolation Shame Family rejection

False refuges

Searching for love Religion without relationship

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Patience Father's heart Restorer Teacher's heart

Religious background

Main testimony theme

Deepening Faith

How they came to faith

Relational influence Gradual journey

Content advisory

Before you watch

This is a gentle, reflective testimony from a woman in her eighties looking back across three marriages, lost custody of her children, and decades of lonely Bible study. There is no graphic content — the weight here is quiet and cumulative, and what makes it worth watching is her honest account of how long it takes to actually learn to listen to God.

What this story teaches

People can know about God for decades — read the Bible, attend church, even experience genuine moments of encounter — and still be making every major decision from their own fear and self-will without realising it. Knowing God's voice and actually listening to it are two very different things.

How God moved

Go Deeper

The only real answer was to and is to seek God. That God has a plan. He's not blindsided by the feelings of people and by the situations that we find ourselves in. He knows where we are. He knows how we got there and his plan is to bring us into holiness with him according to the scripture. So the more you devote yourself to God and ask him what to do, trust him to be leading by the spirit and study the word, the quicker you'll get out of that shady situation — shady in the sense that you don't understand what's happening and you need direction. He's the one that can direct you. He knows everything. He knows if the big problem is you and he knows how to correct it. He knows if the big problem is the other party and he knows how to correct them. But it takes one person steadfastly seeking his face and asking him and receiving — because when you ask you receive — and then you just have to obey. God loves you. He loves you in a way that you have to learn to understand. His love is everlasting. It's eternal. It's pure. It's truthful. And it's different than the love that men and women know and understand. And it takes some time to understand that love. So work with him and he'll bring you to that place.

People can know about God for decades — read the Bible, attend church, even experience genuine moments of encounter — and still be making every major decision from their own fear and self-will without realising it. Knowing God's voice and actually listening to it are two very different things.

What you can take from this

This week, before making any decision you have already half-decided, stop and ask God what he thinks — and wait long enough to actually hear an answer before you move.

Isolation pattern

For years I studied by myself and I had three children and taught them from scripture but my husband was not happy to have me do that and I didn't quite know how to share with them. I never saw that teacher again. And for years I studied by myself without fellowship or more instruction.

Core lie

I was making my choices without God's input. I was thinking my own thoughts and not asking what he thought even though I had been born again. I was fighting authority. I looked like I was obeying but not in my heart. I wanted to be my own person and to make my own choices.

Spirit of fear

He always said, 'Don't fear.' I read, 'Don't fear. Stop fearing.' But I didn't hardly know it that I was afraid. But now I see I was totally afraid and he's taken that fear from me so that I can relax and rest.

1

She said, 'Anybody wants some of that?' And I raised my hand. Yes, me.

2

I called Sid Roth Ministries and asked them where can I get deliverance... they told me to go to a Messianic Jewish congregation in Wheaton and also to check with Pastor Greg Zetsz. And so at that point I began to come every Thursday and Sunday to King of the Nations and every Saturday to the congregation in Wheaton.

3

I studied about forgiveness and about repenting... I studied different teachers and I asked questions and came to understand that if I just talk to him that he would talk back to me and that he would show me what he wanted me to do.

4

I realized he had a special way for me too that was unique and different, not to be compared and to be accepted as the way he made me and to be grateful that I wasn't like others — that I was unique and that I did have a unique place in his world.

Patricia's Christian Walk

Fear that had controlled her whole life has been taken from her. Relationship with her three children, though separated for years, has been restored to the point of enjoying each other's company. A false felony charge was thrown out after God directed her to record and transcribe conversations in her home. Found genuine church fellowship after decades of isolation.

When I left the house that day, I was praying in tongues. I was a different person. I was free. I was singing. I was laughing. I was crying and I was praising God.

Prayer

The power of Prayer — teacher friend who invited her to a Bible study stood in the gap for Patricia.

A teacher colleague said simply 'Come' when Patricia was lonely, and brought her into a small group that read and argued the Bible word for word for about a year. That same friend later brought a visiting Bible teacher to the group whose one-time lesson on God's plan and the power of the Spirit was the moment Patricia was transformed. Later, Sid Roth Ministries directed her to the church community where she finally found sustained fellowship.

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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