Browse Testimonies

Brian

I thought Christianity was the dumbest thing ever — a crutch for people who needed to lie to themselves. I was selling drugs, dabbling in the occult, trying to open my third eye to fight the demons that had followed me since infancy. I was a psychonaut who thought he was smarter than religion.

Bree

I was a deeply spiritual person — a pranic healer, yoga teacher, channeler, astral traveler — who genuinely loved God and thought I was serving him. I'd been in the New Age for 20 years and thought I had evolved beyond dogmatic Christianity.

Carl

I was a model church member — baptized, tithing, teaching Bible classes — but I was doing it all out of duty, to get out of hell and into heaven. I didn't love God, I didn't love my fellow man. I had no real relationship with Christ at all.

Ron

I was a scrawny burnout hippie — Jewish by birth, Buddhist by practice, wannabe shaman — smoking two and a half packs a day, doing hallucinogenics, living on the road with a woman I had nothing in common with, and I couldn't hold a thought in a bucket.

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I was a Christian who had incredible encounters with God, worked in ministry, but hid behind work and battled pornography in secret — a whitewashed tomb, clean on the outside, filthy on the inside, with a heart that kept looking back at Egypt.

Jesse

I was a very miserable, angry person. My whole life was a trauma drama. I was into the New Age for 15 years, tried everything — Sufism, Buddhism, feminism, all of it — and none of it led me to truth or life. I had so much abuse, anger, hatred, and condemnation inside me.

AZ

I was a drifter, a wanderer — lost and disillusioned my whole life, hiding behind gym and eastern mysticism, trying to transcend the physical realm and escape suffering. I had complex PTSD, multiple suicide attempts, and a psychiatrist told me I had no options left.

Maria

I was smiling on the outside but deep inside I was going through so much darkness. I was a normal kid on the outside, but I was tormented by voices telling me to kill myself and harm people I loved, and nobody knew.

Andrea

I was a stripper, deep into drugs and alcohol, running from an abusive relationship, feeling cursed — like everything I touched went bad and I had no control of my life. I felt like a no one with no purpose.

Chris

I was a software engineer and startup guy who rejected Christianity as antiquated, then spent years trying every psychedelic, energy healer, Buddhist retreat, and New Age practice I could find, convinced I could engineer my way to enlightenment and heal my grief on my own terms.

Jade

I was a functioning alcoholic doing cocaine, sleeping around, deep in the New Age — spirit guides, crystals, Reiki, ayahuasca — telling everyone meditation was amazing while my life was an absolute mess. I hated myself and didn't care if I died.

Nathan

I was a drug dealer selling pounds of marijuana, cocaine, and MDMA, addicted to everything, going through the motions at church and yoga meetups, with no idea who I was. My whole life was a lie — nobody around me knew the real me.