Sean

“I was fashioning a noose in my driveway when something stopped me — and years later, a stranger grabbed my hand at a conference and the rage that had consumed me for decades was completely gone.”

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What they struggled with

Alcohol addiction Drug addiction Pornography Anger Shame Father wound Demonic oppression Mental health Suicide attempt Relationship breakdown

False refuges

Pornography Alcohol Drugs Rage / violence Achievement / fitness Religion without relationship

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Father's heart Patience Restorer Healer Defender

Religious background

Roman Catholic Protestant Christian

Main testimony theme

Secondary theme

Deliverance and freedom

How they came to faith

Supernatural encounter Relational influence

Content advisory

Before you watch

This testimony contains graphic descriptions of domestic violence, rage addiction, suicidal ideation, and demonic manifestation — it is heavy content. What makes it worth watching is the specificity of the deliverance: a man who gave away his own name to become a monster watches God restore his identity in a single Bible verse and remove decades of rage in a single moment.

What this story teaches

People can be so consumed by rage and addiction that they lose their own name — and God can still reach them in an ordinary moment, through a single offhand sentence, and restore in minutes what decades of destruction had buried.

How God moved

God was present in every chapter of Sean's life — even the violent, destructive ones — quietly assembling the pieces of a puzzle Sean couldn't see. He did not wait for Sean to clean himself up. He broke through in an ordinary moment, sat with him for three hours, and gave him back the name and identity the enemy had stolen. Then, years later, he finished the work by removing what Sean could not remove himself.

The lie Sean carried

I had a very low self-esteem of who I was and a very poor identity of who I was.

What Jesus showed him

Sean had fought with his identity his entire life — bullied from grade school through high school, abandoned by an absent father, he built a false persona so complete he gave away his own name. God showed him in one verse that the identity he had been running toward and running from his whole life was already settled: 'You belong to me.'

Go Deeper

People can be so consumed by rage and addiction that they lose their own name — and God can still reach them in an ordinary moment, through a single offhand sentence, and restore in minutes what decades of destruction had buried.

What you can take from this

If you are carrying anger that feels like it owns you, ask God this week to show you what it is actually protecting — because underneath Sean's rage was a man who never knew who he was. The anger may not be the real problem.

Identity theft

I completely lost my identity as myself and for about three and a half years I went into almost a different personality — gave away my name as Sean and I went by my football number and I completely adopted a total different personality that was a monster.

Spirit of death

I started to hear this little whisper like go get a wire, go get some rope and just hang yourself from that beam — that'll show her. And I was fashioning up a noose.

Self-condemnation cycle

It was strange — it wasn't like it was necessarily voices but it was like a maniacal laughter of just a lunatic in my head that I would hear just over and over and over again, this laughter, this sick laughter, anytime something would go wrong.

Unnamed entity

At the conference, a rage and fury came over me like I had not felt before — stronger than anything I had ever felt in my past. I started to shake and vibrate. I felt like if I were to spring up I would send bodies flying everywhere. Then all of a sudden it was completely gone.

Generational demon

My dad was very promiscuous and very flirty and an affair tore apart the relationship. It just continued on with me — so there were girls, there was drinking, there was drugs and partying. The pornography had shifted to being very promiscuous and very flirty.

Progressive entrapment

The drinking and the drugs were going and escalating and the depression was getting worse — it was feeding my anger. And slowly over time my anger turned to just rage. It was a steady non-stop rage and literally I became addicted to it — addicted to the feeling of being angry.

1

I went downstairs into my spare room at the time and I fell on my knees and I said I'm yours, whatever it is, your will be done. And I thanked him and I thanked him and I thanked him — I must have thanked him 150 to 200 times. That's all I could get out of my mouth was thank you, thank you for calling to me, thank you for saving me, thank you for all of this. And just wept and wept and wept on my knees.

2

He says I want you to open up your Bible to First Timothy 6:11. I want you to read it. And then he told me to take Timothy's name out and put my name in and read it again. 'But you, Sean, you belong to God.'

3

I held out my hand. I said what do you feel, what do you see. And she took a hold of my hand and instantly I went limp. She had a hold of my hand and she started praying. Five or six different people came over and laid hands on me, praying over me and praying over me, people praying in tongues. And then all of a sudden it was gone. Completely gone.

1 Timothy 6:11

God directed Sean to this verse and told him to replace Timothy's name with his own — 'But you, Sean, you belong to God.' Restored his identity.

Colossians 2:1

God directed Sean here to show him the call to walk away from sinful things and be restored.

Psalms 101:1

Called out his sins; a psalm of proclamation — 'I will' statements — commissioning him to put away sinful things and people and walk for the Lord.

Sean explicitly describes himself as dead in a cave and Jesus as the man pushing the stone away and calling him out — his own words.

Sudden, overwhelming divine encounter that instantly transformed a violent, destructive man into a commissioned servant of God.

Sean describes burning his life to the ground and God creating them new from the ashes — resurrection of a dead family.

Sean had abandoned his own name for a football number; God restored his identity and named him as His own — 'You belong to me.'

Sean's Christian Walk

The rage — 'I don't feel it anymore. I don't worry about it anymore. I don't think about it anymore.' Completely removed at a single moment during deliverance prayer at a conference in Lansing, Michigan.

The rage — 'I don't feel it anymore, I don't worry about it anymore, I don't think about it anymore.' Delivered from the spirit of rage and anger through deliverance prayer. Also freed from decades of alcohol addiction, drug use, pornography, and a destructive identity built around violence.

Prayer

The power of Prayer — wife stood in the gap for Sean.

Angela got saved first and persistently tried to draw Sean into faith — inviting him to church, sharing the gospel with him, asking him to read the Bible with her — over a sustained period. Sean resisted and played along to keep the peace, but her witness was the relational ground that preceded his encounter. She also asked him to start reading the Bible with her during his layoff, which he did reluctantly — and it was in that season that the Holy Spirit broke through.

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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