Leah

“I died from a heroin overdose and woke up in outer darkness — complete blackness with no light, no love, no God — and then felt a jolt of electricity pull me back into my body.”

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What they struggled with

Drug addiction Alcohol addiction Shame Suicide attempt Demonic oppression Bereavement / grief Loneliness / isolation

False refuges

Drugs Alcohol Searching for love

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Unconditional love Patience Shepherd's heart Restorer Forgiver

Religious background

Protestant Christian

Main testimony theme

Near-death experience

Secondary theme

Deliverance and freedom

How they came to faith

Supernatural encounter Hitting rock bottom

God accusation

God allowed this to happen to me

Content advisory

Before you watch

This testimony contains graphic descriptions of heroin addiction, prostitution for drugs, a fatal overdose, and an experience of outer darkness. What makes it worth watching is Leah's raw account of God speaking to her in the middle of her worst years — and the specific lie he dismantled about her being a sacrifice.

What this story teaches

People can know God is the answer and still be unable to stop — the gap between knowing and being free is real, and God stays in that gap rather than abandoning people who keep failing.

How God moved

The lie Leah carried

I really am unwanted — I was sent away, I was a sacrifice, I was destined for hell. Nobody wanted me.

What Jesus showed her

She believed her whole life she was fundamentally unwanted — by her parents, by God — and that she had been sacrificed so others could be blessed, destined for hell while everyone else was loved. That lie drove every addiction and every relationship for decades.

Go Deeper

You have never gone too far, you've never done too much. There is nothing out there that people can do, there is no one that has gone too far that God cannot reach. You have to cry out to the Lord, you have to have a willing heart. You have to have a heart after God like David had a heart after God. You have to let the Lord clean out all the garbage — you have to finally say and let him open up all that junk. That's where the miracle happens, that's where everything comes to light. But you have to let him.

People can know God is the answer and still be unable to stop — the gap between knowing and being free is real, and God stays in that gap rather than abandoning people who keep failing.

What you can take from this

If you have been numbing pain for years and feel too far gone, this week tell God exactly what you told yourself — that you're a sacrifice, that you're unwanted, that you're destined for the worst — and let him answer it.

Unnamed entity

From childhood Leah saw things in her room, was physically punched in the back while in bed. Her father would feel the presence and rebuke it with his Bible. She describes Satan being after her life from four months old.

Spirit of fear

A huge spirit of fear latched on to her between her parents' parenting style and the demonic activity in her room, and just grew. It drove her into isolation, shame, and the belief she was unwanted.

Progressive entrapment

Starting with prescription painkillers at 17 for pain relief, escalating through years of pill theft, then crack, then heroin — each drug deeper than the last. She describes chasing one drug after another, never satisfied, degrading herself lower and lower until selling herself for drugs.

Core lie

The central lie: that she was a sacrifice God had offered up so her father could be saved and lead others to the Lord — that she was destined for hell and fundamentally unwanted by God and her family.

Spirit of rejection

When her parents sent her to a girls' home at 16, it confirmed her deepest fear: 'Here I am, they don't want me, they're sending me away. I really am unwanted.' This kicked into overdrive and drove the addiction cycle for years.

The accusation

God allowed this to happen to me

What they said

“God if you sacrificed me so my dad because my dad led so many people to the Lord... I was a sacrifice... I was just destined to go to hell.”

How God answered

The Lord told her directly: 'I will leave the 99 to go find the one. You were never a sacrifice.' He reminded her he was always with her, never left her, and that he looks on the heart — not the outward appearance.

Resolution

Fully resolved in testimony

Leah's Christian Walk

Prayer

The power of Prayer — praying parents stood in the gap for Leah.

Her parents took every collect call she made, never rejected her, and kept praying for her through decades of addiction. Her father had made a covenant with God over her life when she was four months old with spinal meningitis. A pastor at a small Hispanic church also called her back after she left a desperate message while strung out in Colorado, came to her, and ministered to her alongside his wife and church ladies who brought her food.

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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