Kalia

“I was a pastor's kid who loved Jesus, then spent years in witchcraft, adultery, and questioning my sexuality — because I thought I had to choose between being Hawaiian and following God.”

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What they struggled with

Occult involvement LGBTQ background Shame Backsliding

False refuges

Witchcraft Sexual behaviour Searching for love

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Father's heart Restorer Unconditional love Patience

Religious background

Protestant Christian

Main testimony theme

Deepening Faith

How they came to faith

Gradual journey Supernatural encounter

Content advisory

Before you watch

This testimony contains sexual sin, witchcraft involvement, and a same-sex affair — but what makes it distinctive is the depth of the cultural and identity wound underneath. Kalia's story is for anyone who has ever felt they had to choose between who they are and who God is calling them to be.

What this story teaches

People often abandon faith not because they stop believing in God but because they believe they have to stop being themselves to follow him — and God's answer is almost always to give back what was surrendered, in fuller form.

How God moved

The lie Kalia carried

I'm not Hawaiian enough if I love Jesus, and I'm not a good enough daughter of Christ if I really love my people and my culture.

What Jesus showed her

She carried the core wound that her Hawaiian identity and her faith in Jesus were irreconcilable — that to follow Jesus fully she would have to surrender who she was as a native Hawaiian woman. This false binary drove years of spiritual drift, witchcraft, and sexual sin before it was broken.

Go Deeper

People often abandon faith not because they stop believing in God but because they believe they have to stop being themselves to follow him — and God's answer is almost always to give back what was surrendered, in fuller form.

What you can take from this

If you have been told — or have told yourself — that your culture, background, or identity is incompatible with following Jesus, ask him this week: 'Did you give me this? And can you redeem it?' Then wait for his answer.

Identity theft

From about 2015 to 2019 I was struggling between who am I as a native Hawaiian — feeling really pressured to have to choose. I'm not Hawaiian enough if I love Jesus and I'm not a good enough daughter of Christ if I really love my people and my culture.

Isolation pattern

I was dating this guy who completely did not love the Lord. Jesus in a conversation was a no-go for him. I wasn't talking about Jesus. I was living with him at the time. I was living in sin and calling myself a Christian at the same time.

Counterfeit spirituality

I was getting into witchcraft. I was just looking for anything and everything, trying to mesh these two and feeling like they didn't belong.

1

Lord, do I just drop my identity as a Hawaiian to follow you? So be it. I trust you. I trust that you were the one that gave this blessing to me. And first I look to you first as a daughter.

2

What have I done? Who am I? I'm so far, I'm so far.

3

I committed myself to a time of just me, just me and the Lord, knowing him as my bridegroom.

4

I committed myself to getting this mentorship.

5

I got this tattoo — it's my outwardly I do to Jesus. It's my outwardly reminder that the importance of what I take in will affect the things that I birth out.

Psalms 139:13

She reflected that God knew her before she was knit in her mother's womb — before science could tell her she was Hawaiian — and that he gave her that identity.

John 8:1–11

In the field, the Lord brought back the story of the adulteress — he picked up her chin and said 'go and sin no more.' This was her turning point.

Proverbs 7

She read Proverbs 7 during the adultery and felt 'I don't deserve a king because I'm that adulterous woman' — deepening her shame before her return.

Luke 1:41–44

When she first saw her future husband after worship, her heart leapt — she compared it to the baby leaping inside Elizabeth.

Kalia explicitly identifies as a prodigal — raised in faith, strayed into sin, returned to the Father in a field moment of weeping and recommitment.

God brought her the story of the adulteress at her breaking point — lifting her chin and saying 'go and sin no more' — which she directly applied to herself.

Kalia repeatedly describes knowing Jesus as her bridegroom as the central posture of her return and restoration.

Kalia's Christian Walk

Prayer

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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