Alex

“I grew up in China never hearing the gospel, got into psychedelics and New Age spirituality, and Jesus pulled me out of the water and showed me heaven and hell before I had ever read a single page of the Bible.”

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What they struggled with

Drug addiction Occult involvement Demonic oppression Loneliness / isolation Shame

False refuges

New age Plant medicine Searching for love

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Unconditional love Patience Grace Shepherd's heart Restorer

Religious background

Atheism New Age / spirituality

Main testimony theme

Secondary theme

Deliverance and freedom

How they came to faith

Supernatural encounter Relational influence

Content advisory

Before you watch

This testimony contains vivid descriptions of demonic encounters, visions of hell, and psychedelic drug use — content that requires emotional preparation. What makes it extraordinary is that Alex encountered Jesus, heaven, hell, baptism, and the wedding supper of the Lamb in a single night — before he had ever read a single page of the Bible.

What this story teaches

People searching for healing, love, and meaning through spirituality or substances are often looking for the same thing — they just don't know yet that what they're looking for has a name.

How God moved

The lie Alex carried

I'm a good person — I always thought if you ask nonbelievers they say yeah maybe I'm going to heaven because I'm a good person.

What Jesus showed him

He had carried a fear of abandonment since before birth — his mother attempted to abort him three times — and spent his entire life searching for love and home to fill that void. He believed he was a good person, unaware of the darkness within him, until kneeling before God he saw himself clearly as a sinner.

Go Deeper

You don't have to go through what I went through because just repent and believe in the gospel — may my story help you to believe that the word of God is true so you don't have to go through what I went through. Start reading the Bible. I hope my testimony just stirs up some hunger in people to read the word because it is truly beautiful — it's everything, it's Jesus himself, the Bible is a person. Fear God and keep his commandments.

People searching for healing, love, and meaning through spirituality or substances are often looking for the same thing — they just don't know yet that what they're looking for has a name.

What you can take from this

If you have been filling a void with spiritual practices, substances, or relationships, take one honest moment this week to ask: what am I actually looking for? Then ask Jesus directly if he is the answer.

Counterfeit spirituality

New Age spirituality packaged as self-improvement — tarot cards, breathwork, meditation, affirmations, psychedelics — presented as healing and evolution but was a false light. The enemy disguised himself as an angel of light, using almost the same words as the angels but with a wrong feeling.

Unnamed entity

A female old witch-like transparent entity that came out of his mouth during the vision — he later realized this was what had been stopping him from hearing the gospel, going to church, or receiving any teaching. My heart was cold like a stone and nothing was coming in.

Shame spiral

In the hell vision, voices of judgment, condemnation, shame and guilt — anything to belittle me. Making us to be small, to be fearful so we're not stepping fully into our power and authority under Christ. I was in that state of just so shame, feeling so shamed and just so little, feeling so small.

Core lie

The fear of abandonment was kind of ingrained in me — my mom wanted to have an abortion three times. Growing up I was always looking for a sense of home and love. The enemy capitalized on that trauma and I was looking for love my entire life in all the wrong places.

Progressive entrapment

Started using psychedelics to heal and grow, then kept returning despite encounters with hell — took mushrooms alone three months after the first terrifying retreat, then attended another retreat. The enemy used the genuine longing for healing to keep him returning to a dangerous open door.

Generational demon

Unforgiveness was an open door for the enemy — demons were tormenting me. The moment I forgave everybody the torment stopped. Unforgiveness is a big open door for the enemy.

1

I started to confess my sins — one by one like I have to face them like one by one to confess. Jealousy, envy, anger, hatred — one by one. The only way is for me to repent, to speak it out loud into the light. Once I said it out loud I felt like this huge weight left me and I actually physically was throwing up.

2

I closed my eyes and I opened my arms and I just said to God in my mind: I love you, I trust you, I Surrender.

3

I called my earthly best friend Adam — he's a Christian — and long story short he shared a brief gospel version with me and we just prayed a simple prayer where I surrendered my life to Jesus.

4

I had some unforgiveness and demons were tormenting me and then I forgave everybody and the torment stopped.

5

I just put a Bible on my head because it was so powerless I didn't know what to do, nobody's home, it was just me, I was being tormented by those demons and I put the Bible on my head and the demons were fleeing from all directions.

6

Ever since then I stopped using psychedelics and I started to dive into the word.

1 John 4:18

Speaker quotes 'perfect love casts out fear' to explain how God's love drove out the demon.

Philippians 4:7

Speaker describes experiencing 'peace beyond all understanding' when surrendering to God during a vision.

John 15:5

Speaker quotes 'apart from me you can do nothing' to explain he could not break free by his own strength.

John 3:16

Speaker cites this to explain how he was able to experience God's love — because Jesus died for him.

Ephesians 6:12

Speaker quotes wrestling against principalities and powers to frame the hell vision as God showing him the enemy's ways.

Hebrews 10:31

Speaker paraphrases 'it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God' in response to his hell experience.

Matthew 7:21–23

Speaker paraphrases 'depart from me I never knew you' — felt this experientially in hell before ever reading it.

Revelation 3:16

Speaker references the lukewarm verse as a serious warning the Western church avoids.

Luke 15:11–32

Speaker describes his experience of kneeling before God's unconditional love as the prodigal son story — which he had never read at the time.

Matthew 14:28–31

Jesus pulling him out of the water mirrored Peter walking on water — confirmed when he later watched The Chosen.

Matthew 18:23–35

Forgiving everyone stopped demonic torment — later recognized as the parable of the unforgiving servant, which he had never read.

Genesis 3:1–7

Tree vine growing on his arm as he reached toward God mirrored the forbidden fruit and broken covenant — like the Sistine Chapel image of Adam and God.

Ecclesiastes 12:13

Speaker cites 'fear God and keep his commandments' as the summary of his entire testimony.

Psalms 14:1–3

Speaker quotes 'no one is good, nobody is good' as the conviction he felt kneeling before God.

Revelation 19:7–9

Wedding ceremony vision mirrors the wedding supper of the Lamb — the church as bride of Christ.

Matthew 5:44

In the hell vision, God showed him that loving enemies protects the soul from the enemy gaining a foothold through hatred.

Jesus literally pulled Alex from drowning in a vision, mirroring Peter — confirmed when he later watched The Chosen and wept in recognition.

Alex knelt before God's unconditional love after confession, experiencing being looked at as if he had never sinned — the father running to the son.

Alex experienced a wedding ceremony vision — angels whispering excitedly, a ring placed on his finger — before ever reading Revelation.

Alex realized his hell experience was not punishment but God's love — like being thrown into the furnace to meet God inside it.

Alex's entire journey — spiritually dead in New Age, encountering God, being born again — mirrors the valley of dry bones coming to life.

Tree vine froze his arm mid-reach toward God, mirroring the Sistine Chapel image and the broken covenant — he had to choose to break through it.

Demonic torment stopped the moment he forgave everyone — he later discovered this was the exact parable of the unforgiving servant.

Alex's Christian Walk

A female witch-like demon that came out of his mouth — jealousy, envy, anger, and hatred leaving one by one through confession, accompanied by physical vomiting.

Delivered from jealousy, envy, anger, hatred — one by one I had to face them and confess. A female old witch-like demon came out of my mouth. I was set free from psychedelics and New Age spirituality. Unforgiveness was an open door — I forgave everybody and the torment stopped.

Prayer

The power of Prayer — Praying Christian best friend stood in the gap for Alex.

Adam, Alex's Christian best friend, had been praying for him every day — kneeling down — for a long time before Alex ever called him. When Alex finally reached out after his second Jesus encounter, Adam shared a brief version of the gospel and prayed a simple prayer of surrender with him. He was the first person Alex thought to call.

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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