Chris

“I literally tried everything I could find — LSD, DMT, ayahuasca, energy healers, Buddhist retreats — and a demon was trying to make me kill myself before Jesus showed up in a Hindu temple in India.”

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What they struggled with

Occult involvement Demonic oppression Spiritual warfare (post-conversion)Drug addiction Bereavement / grief

False refuges

Plant medicine New age Occult practices Intellectual searching Escapism

What this story reveals about God

Relentless pursuit Patience Unconditional love Shepherd's heart Restorer Defender

Religious background

Protestant Christian New Age / spirituality Buddhism

Main testimony theme

Secondary theme

Deliverance and freedom

How they came to faith

Supernatural encounter Relational influence

Content advisory

Before you watch

This testimony contains graphic descriptions of demonic encounters, psychedelic experiences, and voices commanding suicide — it is heavy content that requires emotional preparation. What makes it worth watching is the specificity: Chris is a technically-minded person who tried every alternative with rigorous intentionality, which makes his encounter with Jesus in a Hindu temple in India all the more undeniable.

What this story teaches

People who are genuinely searching for truth with everything they have are often the closest to finding it — not because their effort earns it, but because the intensity of the search eventually exhausts every substitute and leaves them open to the real thing.

How God moved

Go Deeper

I think it's like God is good, God is — his voice is peace, he is kind. And if you're working hard, if you find yourself working working working for truth or enlightenment or freedom from suffering, I just pray that people will open their minds and their hearts to the possibility that God is who he says he is in the Bible and Jesus is who he says he is. Because I literally tried everything that I came across that I could find and had access to and spent boatloads of money on all of these things and there's so much deception and all of it leads the same place of like making yourself into God, working harder and harder, and less of a deep sense of like peace and self-sacrificial service to others. And what I've seen in knowing God these past four years is that the solidity and the peace and the goodness of God is beyond all compare. It is so good to have solid ground to stand on and solid ground to build on in life and relationship. I just pray that people would open their minds and hearts to the possibility that that could be true. So if you are searching, if you want peace, just try it — try prayer, try asking God to meet you and show you who he is, and he'll do it.

People who are genuinely searching for truth with everything they have are often the closest to finding it — not because their effort earns it, but because the intensity of the search eventually exhausts every substitute and leaves them open to the real thing.

What you can take from this

If you have been working hard at spiritual growth — meditation, self-help, therapy, practices — and still feel unresolved, try one week of simply asking God to show you who he is, without any technique or method. Just ask.

Progressive entrapment

Started with LSD at Burning Man, escalated to ayahuasca retreats, then MDMA therapy, then 5-MeO-DMT — each substance opening deeper spiritual doors. The psychedelic world felt like the only thing working, driving him deeper despite increasingly dark experiences.

Counterfeit spirituality

The New Age framework — energy healing, channeling, Course in Miracles, Buddhist detachment — provided language that reframed demonic encounters as 'medicine,' 'entities to love,' or 'shadow work.' This kept Chris from recognizing the enemy for years and surrounded him with people opening more spiritual doors.

Spirit of death

During the Vipassana retreat and after, Chris experienced streams of imagery of standing on a cliff wanting to jump off, and voices saying 'kill yourself' — even while listening to worship music after conversion. He described being aware of a spiritual presence that wanted him to kill himself to keep a demon from entering him.

Unnamed entity

A presence that looked like a man hovered over him during ayahuasca, glaring down with a sense of ownership — 'wanted me to feel like I was owned by him.' Later a presence tried to make him believe its hand was his hand and wanted him to follow it in the spiritual realm.

Generational demon

Chris recalled playing with a Ouija board at age 7-8 at a neighbor's house — a memory that kept surfacing during meditation for years. He recognized this as the original door that had been open since childhood, connecting his adult demonic encounters to that early occult involvement.

Spirit of condemnation

After baptism, voices saying 'kill yourself' continued even during worship music. Chris described being aware of spiritual evil in a harrowing way — the enemy continuing to press after conversion through the doors that had been opened.

1

I am I don't get a lot of things about this but I'm I'm willing to commit myself to Jesus

2

I called a friend of mine that I grew up with who I had always debated about Christianity with — I told him what was happening and when he prayed it was like this power and authority came over me and it was like that presence that had been there for the past four or five days — it just couldn't be there in that moment.

3

I called my mom and I was like Mom I think I need to come home and like get baptized — I took the next red eye flight out and got baptized the next morning.

4

It was a good year at least if not more of spiritual healing of closing doors, getting rid of everything New Age, moving back to Tennessee from California.

5

There's this Jesus prayer that some of the Eastern Orthodox pray — it's just Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me a sinner — and you just say it over and over and try and say it from the deepest place of need and truth about Jesus. I just started praying that over and over and it was very grounding for me.

Chris was actively pursuing alternative spiritual paths when Jesus appeared to him unexpectedly, redirecting his entire life toward the very faith he had rejected.

Chris spent years in a far country of spiritual searching, squandering resources, until he came to himself and returned — experiencing the Father's welcome as coming home.

Chris described years of spiritual deadness and exhaustion — working hard with no life — until God breathed life into him through the encounter with Jesus.

Chris was tormented by demonic presences through occult involvement; after encountering Jesus and being baptized, he was progressively freed from their oppression.

Chris's Christian Walk

Prayer

The power of Prayer — childhood friend who persistently presented Christianity stood in the gap for Chris.

A friend Chris had grown up with and always debated Christianity with had consistently and lovingly presented the case for faith over the years — Chris always thought he was antiquated and behind the times. When Chris called him from the Vipassana retreat in crisis, the friend prayed over him in Jesus's name, and the demonic presence that had tormented Chris for days immediately lifted. He also flew in to attend Chris's baptism.

Is today your day?

Yes — I'm Ready

Absolutely, He will.

You don't have to figure everything out right now.

You don't need to have all the answers.

If something stirred in your heart while you were watching or reading — that's not nothing.

That is the Holy Spirit gently knocking on the door of your heart.

Stay right here. There's no rush. The Spirit doesn't pressure or hurry.

Watch another video. Read a little more. Take your time.

When you're ready — even if “ready” just means a little curious — Jesus is ready to meet you.

You don't have to clean up your life first.

You don't have to pass any test.

You only need to say a simple “yes” to Him.

He will take care of the rest.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9

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