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Dan

I was a secular Israeli Jew studying math at university. I believed in God — unlike my atheist parents — but Jesus was a foreign god, something Gentiles believed in, connected in my mind to the persecution of Jewish people.

Tessa

I was a dominatrix and sex worker who felt completely unworthy and unlovable. The adult industry made me feel worthy when nothing else did. I had no ID, no way out, and a suicide plan ready for when my time in the industry ran out.

Danny

I was the most depressed person I knew personally. I grew up in church, even became a leader in Christian fellowship, but at the gut level I could not imagine God really loved me. I could not remember one happy day in my entire childhood.

AZ

I was a drifter, a wanderer — lost and disillusioned my whole life, hiding behind gym and eastern mysticism, trying to transcend the physical realm and escape suffering. I had complex PTSD, multiple suicide attempts, and a psychiatrist told me I had no options left.

Ashley

I was a plus-sized girl who got bullied everywhere I went, molested at eight, and spent years lying and manipulating people just so someone would love me. I felt like God made a mistake with me and I had to fix it myself.

Mike

I was a rock musician who nearly died of an overdose, then dropped out of college to search for God. I became a yoga guru with 300 students, teaching 14 hours a day, running an ashram, totally committed to the idea that all religions lead to the same ultimate reality.

Paul

I was an atheist who mocked my pastor parents, thought church was a money-making fairy tale, and spent my life drinking, partying, and gaming. Later I got into yoga and New Age spirituality, believing I was God and could manifest everything.

Bree

I was a deeply spiritual person — a pranic healer, yoga teacher, channeler, astral traveler — who genuinely loved God and thought I was serving him. I'd been in the New Age for 20 years and thought I had evolved beyond dogmatic Christianity.

Carl

I was a model church member — baptized, tithing, teaching Bible classes — but I was doing it all out of duty, to get out of hell and into heaven. I didn't love God, I didn't love my fellow man. I had no real relationship with Christ at all.

Stuart

I was a Jewish guy from the Bronx — a rebel, a heavy drinker, a drug dealer. I believed Jesus was not for the Jewish people. End of discussion. I wanted to connect with God but found only hypocrisy in the synagogue.

Victoria

I was a drug-taking, hustle-obsessed business girl running an OnlyFans porn agency, crying every day, staying awake for days on cocaine, convinced I was too far gone and unlovable — just desperately trying to finally matter.

Leah

I was a latchkey kid who never felt wanted or loved, chasing one drug after another for decades — pain pills, crack, heroin — selling myself for drugs, attempting suicide, and believing I was a sacrifice God had written off.